Excited Newbie - Confident Heart OBS

Excited Newbie – Is this your first study? Why did you sign up, and what do you hope to gain during our study?

This is my first Proverbs 31 bible study. I signed up because in February 2011 I was going through one of the roughest times in my life. My significant other of 7 1/2 years and father of my child was cheating on me with a 20 year old from work. I was trying to save my family and I was broken. I felt alone until I turned to Christ. So in February 2011 I re-dedicated my heart and life to Christ and became born again. Eventually my significant other left me and my child, but it didn't break me because of my relationship with Christ. I finally had someone to lean on and something to completely believe in. I still felt safe even at a time in my life when everything was changing. I decided to go back to graduate school to get my Doctorate of Physical Therapy and throughout my time in grad school I continued to lean and rely on Christ and feel close to Him, while growing in my trust in His plan for me and my daughter.

However, this past May I lost someone very close to me. A person who was the best person I ever met. Ever since  then I have been struggling with what God's plan is. How can God take away this amazing person and not even punish my ex for the sins he committed? The world stopped making sense and I have been feeling myself growing farther away from God instead of closer. I have been trying to find my way back to Him and to grow my faith and trust so it's like a steady rock and so when tough times come I'm stronger and don't waiver in my confidence of God's plan. I feel that this OBS will really help me to grow in my confidence and faith and give me the boost that I need.