Thursday, October 10, 2013

Excited Newbie - Confident Heart OBS

Excited Newbie – Is this your first study? Why did you sign up, and what do you hope to gain during our study?

This is my first Proverbs 31 bible study. I signed up because in February 2011 I was going through one of the roughest times in my life. My significant other of 7 1/2 years and father of my child was cheating on me with a 20 year old from work. I was trying to save my family and I was broken. I felt alone until I turned to Christ. So in February 2011 I re-dedicated my heart and life to Christ and became born again. Eventually my significant other left me and my child, but it didn't break me because of my relationship with Christ. I finally had someone to lean on and something to completely believe in. I still felt safe even at a time in my life when everything was changing. I decided to go back to graduate school to get my Doctorate of Physical Therapy and throughout my time in grad school I continued to lean and rely on Christ and feel close to Him, while growing in my trust in His plan for me and my daughter.

However, this past May I lost someone very close to me. A person who was the best person I ever met. Ever since  then I have been struggling with what God's plan is. How can God take away this amazing person and not even punish my ex for the sins he committed? The world stopped making sense and I have been feeling myself growing farther away from God instead of closer. I have been trying to find my way back to Him and to grow my faith and trust so it's like a steady rock and so when tough times come I'm stronger and don't waiver in my confidence of God's plan. I feel that this OBS will really help me to grow in my confidence and faith and give me the boost that I need.

10 comments:

  1. I was led to Jesus through my husband's unfaithfulness. It's a hard road, but God IS faithful and though we don't understand our plan we have to trust in it being in our best long term interests. Best wishes to you!

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  2. My husband after two and half years of marriage decided that marriage was too hard from him and we are currently going through a divorce. I have always been a Christian, but this time in my life has pushed me closer to God. I am confused, hurt, rejected, angry, and not sure why this is happening, but God is still with me and He has a plan for my life just like He has one for yours. Stick with God. We don't know why things happen, but we do know that God is faithful and He is preparing you for a life of greatness that will glorify HIM!!

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    1. Thanks everebecka! I'm so sorry you are going through a rough divorce. Christ is good and will see you through this!

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  3. Wow...you have sure been through a lot and I'm confident that you'll find that firm foundation you are looking for. I'm also a newbie to this, but I'm really looking forward to finding the same even if our roads to here have been different.

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    1. Thanks Kristen. I'm excited for our new journey.

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  4. Welcome to OBS Ashleigh, you are going to really love being part of a study that is shared by so many other women around the world. Focus on God and not the circumstance and feel His Presence as you let Him be in control. Praying that you allow God to draw you closer to Him as you reach out to receive His love for you. Blessings on your journey and as you find God's plan for your life.
    Marilyn V (OBS Group Leader)

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  5. Hi Ashleigh.
    I was popping past checking out these blogs when I came across yours. Wow, you touched my heart within seconds. Unsure why but your blog has convinced me to start a faith blog and has helped me decide to definitely do this study.
    As they say God works in mysterious ways.
    Hugs & blessings.

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    1. Thanks Raelene. I'm so glad that God used this blog to help you decide to start your own faith blog! He works in amazing ways! I'm excited to learn more about you and your journey through this study!

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